it's been a while...

hey guys...it's been a while.
so much has changed.
anyways, here are some more of my thoughts.
just thought i would to share.

when you lose someone you love,
you feel her death all over again.
every day you wake up
and you're reminded throughout your day of her
and knowing you'll never see her again.
like the mothers day sale jewelry advertisement on the radio
or that Korean tofu place that you always ate at with her.
its like struggling to not fall into a pit-
treading water at the deep end while completely worn out
gasping for air as your lead limbs sink lower.

and you still talk about her in the present tense
or else she's gone
for certain.